Heya gorgeous folks…
So I started my day off with some meditation OOOMMMMMMMMMMMM & then prayer then declaring grateful/happy statements which I will continue after this post… See I need some serious guidance about something… But I believe I will know when the time is right…
Ok I woke up missing an old friend wont say names but he was always a real sweetie and secretly in love with me, see I never realized it (everyone else did) but I should’ve cause we were always together and he didn’t treat me like he did all our other friends… but you bet we always had a blast together I mean we laughed till our tummies hurt, we were partners in crime and all our teachers knew to not let us sit next to each other, although one did and I must say never quite learned anything in that class just jokes and silliness all around… I could’ve easily fallen for him to, had I known what I know now (he turned out a real hunk) but that’s not the only reason he was such a awesome guy, really but the reason I didn’t fall for him?........
Well is blonde, big blue eyed and has an AMAZING smile he has been mentioned in previous posts… no regrets with this one! Really he was something swept me off my feet when I expected it the least… Two totally different people from two totally different backgrounds, but that didn’t stop us heck no, we were something, friends couldn’t stop talking about us and how we managed to be so, honest and loving all the time (ok my friends have a bad rap with relationships so), we were like a golden couple… awwwe to the way I wrote him love letters and double awwwe to the effort he put into seeing me…. We had lots of pressure from tons of people to break up (we came from different walks of life) but we were strong about it we didn’t let it get to us we fought for us and later on people gave up trying to change our minds…
What a man he was and still is he knew how to handle me, see normally with men I always get my way (no I am not being dirty by that I mean I can do what I want they give me what I want) not with this guy he didn’t take any tantrums nope he didn’t give me what I wanted, always (of course he did sometimes), he gave me what mattered what I needed in a way I didn’t always understood but learned to adore… we turned out to be best of friends also the first person we turned to for love/support/bitching was each other, wow it wasn’t my plan to babble on about this it just started coming… but reading as I type and thinking about it, our story sounds like a love story… boy sweeps girl off her feet and rescues her (he was my escape from a hectic family life), girl and boy stand firm against forces trying to destroy them (a bit melodramatic), boy and girl turn to each other when all else fails… like an old love flame that could never quite burn out completely…
Oh I miss him, I really do no safer place for me that in his arms with him I felt safe in so many ways, when I was with him no one could hurt me, no putting on my fake smile and fake jokes he wouldn’t let anyone or thing hurt me or so I thought, I don’t know now…
Ok ha ha ha what a soppy, mushy post from me today… it really wasn’t my plan but it felt kinda good…
Love to all u guys&girls…
xoxoxoxo
So I started my day off with some meditation OOOMMMMMMMMMMMM & then prayer then declaring grateful/happy statements which I will continue after this post… See I need some serious guidance about something… But I believe I will know when the time is right…
Ok I woke up missing an old friend wont say names but he was always a real sweetie and secretly in love with me, see I never realized it (everyone else did) but I should’ve cause we were always together and he didn’t treat me like he did all our other friends… but you bet we always had a blast together I mean we laughed till our tummies hurt, we were partners in crime and all our teachers knew to not let us sit next to each other, although one did and I must say never quite learned anything in that class just jokes and silliness all around… I could’ve easily fallen for him to, had I known what I know now (he turned out a real hunk) but that’s not the only reason he was such a awesome guy, really but the reason I didn’t fall for him?........
Well is blonde, big blue eyed and has an AMAZING smile he has been mentioned in previous posts… no regrets with this one! Really he was something swept me off my feet when I expected it the least… Two totally different people from two totally different backgrounds, but that didn’t stop us heck no, we were something, friends couldn’t stop talking about us and how we managed to be so, honest and loving all the time (ok my friends have a bad rap with relationships so), we were like a golden couple… awwwe to the way I wrote him love letters and double awwwe to the effort he put into seeing me…. We had lots of pressure from tons of people to break up (we came from different walks of life) but we were strong about it we didn’t let it get to us we fought for us and later on people gave up trying to change our minds…
What a man he was and still is he knew how to handle me, see normally with men I always get my way (no I am not being dirty by that I mean I can do what I want they give me what I want) not with this guy he didn’t take any tantrums nope he didn’t give me what I wanted, always (of course he did sometimes), he gave me what mattered what I needed in a way I didn’t always understood but learned to adore… we turned out to be best of friends also the first person we turned to for love/support/bitching was each other, wow it wasn’t my plan to babble on about this it just started coming… but reading as I type and thinking about it, our story sounds like a love story… boy sweeps girl off her feet and rescues her (he was my escape from a hectic family life), girl and boy stand firm against forces trying to destroy them (a bit melodramatic), boy and girl turn to each other when all else fails… like an old love flame that could never quite burn out completely…
Oh I miss him, I really do no safer place for me that in his arms with him I felt safe in so many ways, when I was with him no one could hurt me, no putting on my fake smile and fake jokes he wouldn’t let anyone or thing hurt me or so I thought, I don’t know now…
Ok ha ha ha what a soppy, mushy post from me today… it really wasn’t my plan but it felt kinda good…
Love to all u guys&girls…
xoxoxoxo
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